i have decided things today.

1. boo i'm fat i'm never eating again.
2. i need to be a nicer person.
3. lord of the rings: best film ever.

i feel sad sad sad i don't know why. i think it's something to do with my mum; looking back on this holiday i have been home for what, 2 months and probably spent about 3 hours with her in total. i feel a bit resentful and i don't want to.

i won't be able to sleep tonight, i can feel it. the air is muggy and thick and my mind is cloudy. this is one of those nights when i'd love to just go and sit on waterloo bridge looking at the lights of the national theatre reflecting off the water. and think. or not think, maybe.

anyway, night blog...