hi blog.

i am not very well today. i went to the dentist and had a bit of a panic attack whilst she was drilling into my head. i just started crying and couldn't stop and then i felt like i couldn't breathe. she stopped drilling and said i should come back in three months. i am terrified of going back. i think i'm getting a phobia.

i got some sad news yesterday, too.
sometimes i feel like all we're doing here is waiting for our bodies to give up.